one idea that's been popping up recently that i wanna explore is the diminishing of social groups in islam. in the modern (and arguably classical) world there seems to be an overemphasis on groups. race, gender, class, sexuality, etc, but the argument i've been hearing is that islam doesn't operate on the basis of social groups— it recognises them and elevates them all equally, but ultimately virtue comes down to the individual. i'll keep looking.

one of my professors once said that nuance is not always good. i'd like to explore further what that means, because to some extent, social groups don't truly exist in the sense that two individuals are the same. but part of science is also to categorise; to find essences. many thoughts.

I've been pondering. I'm unsatisfied with my life now— not that I am ungrateful for my material conditions, but that I have not been grateful enough. It feels as though my soul has cavities in it and I am not doing enough to cleanse it. I feel a lot of guilt, shame, and anger. I wish I knew the answers to this.

I spent a day viewing the world as is. Eventually I found love and joy, and I also found the natural and social climate we're in. I'll write more when my blogging page is ready, but perhaps it's time I make a change.

I've been living in a world that (I perceive) hates me. It's time to return to my soul and view the world as is.

it's really true that productivity in a separate project alleviates burnout. i had no capacity to finish up my readings yesterday, until i worked on this site— all of a sudden my motivation to study rose up afterwards.

just added this new miniblog feature! here i upload my passing thoughts.